Today i went to hospital to visit my grandma..

before in, i already heard if about grandma' eye cnt saw much things except a little bit of light..
i was just fine before i saw my grandma..

when i met with my grandma, she nap on the bed of hospital, my aunts called me hold grandma' hand, tht time, i felt....i don noe... just someone who suddenly cnt saw anything, only can heard....touch....felt.. but cnt saw... for normal people, it is kind felt like only dark color in front but actually thr is someone who she noe is standing in front.. when i thinking of tht, my tears like wan to jump out from my eye dy..

just now, i saw grandpa use his hand slowly touch grandma' face.. when looks at his face n his action, u can felt tht grandpa felt very sad because he noe grandma is felt uncomfortable but he cnt do anything except just stand beside n talk to her, touch her n let her noe he always beside her..

i heard frm cousin, grandpa was keep worries and very unhappy when the moment grandma just donw the operation.. coz grandma cnt talk much due to her body hvn recovery from ubat' kesan..

do i should believe the exists of god?
if god really exists, can u makes my grandma recover? no nd too fast, at least become can walk like normal days, can smile like normal days, looks great like normal days, can do any exercise or homework like normal days.. thn jiu enough dy..
m i asking too much?

Dear blog,

been days din write anything to u..
not because i'm lazy.. is because these few days i don have anything caused me moody or felt down.. it is a good thing, doesn't it?

but today, i found out some truth tht makes me felt sad on him...
is this kind of things also need to be stole..
maybe he think that the money his family used only is only called as money, mine is called water but not money?
Or he think that me is so rich until can let him take benefit from me without asking?

before today, i was just felt sry about his personality, but start today it makes me angry with his personality.. how could i meet this kind of people?

but, when i was very angry when thinking wadever he did on me.. i suddenly not longer angry with him but felt very unfortunate to him..
do he kesian until need stole things from others?
does he noe this kind of action made himself...no! is his parent!
does he noe it will makes his parent shame?
or he just think this kind of action is he proud to do so...just because the action is done on me?

i dont noe him.. i'm not him.. i just noe wadever he did on me he will never have the chance to do so again..
because we are not gonna stay close soon.. thats wad i hoping right now..

for lastly, i hate him!
but i felt unfortunate on him more then i angry on him..

have a nice day.. My Blog.. ...

Dear Blog,

Today count as my happy day coz i hang out with my lovely classmate today.. we watched a pretty cool movie named 2012.. and it makes me think of a question:

If Tomorrow will be the end of day, wad will u do?
My answer: i will climb to the nearest mountain then stand there and enjoy the last moment of my life..=)

night comes, frends come talk to me.. wad we chatting about makes me come out with two words word: THANK YOU.. everythings.. only two words i can said to them..

At the same times, i been think back of past.. a past which makes me grow mature and have a must reach target.. is that time i made my goal of my life which i most wanted to achieved..

It also makes me think back when i was small, how immature i m.. after tht happened only can said i'm grow up and start to not dreaming but to thinking more reality.. is tht count a good experience for me?

For me, yes! tht is the best ever bad sample made by him..
i will never forget about when i looks at her cry face, disappointed face, her tears.. only when she smile, only i will felt happy..
i dont want to see the crying face again..
she is always my most important and beautiful angel..

Have a nice day.. My Blog.. =(